Yes, they all wanted her to die,may be even myself.And she died.
The girl I mentioned in 2 of my earlier posts [November,December]died few days ago. Not seeing her come for review for last 2 months, I called the cell number I had obtained from Hospital records again.The person who answered immediately gave it to the girl's mother.
Why you are not bringing her to me?How is she? I asked in an accusing tone.
She is no more,died few days ago', was the matter of fact reply.
I was shocked.
' Did you take her to any doctor?'
'No, She was better with your medicines'.
'Did she die in a hospital or home?'
'She died at home'.
I held the line for a few seconds not knowing what to do.Then I disconnected.
Sense of depression engulfed me.And guilt.May be I should have been more pro-active.Should have telephoned that number more regularly and threatened them of action if they did not bring the girl to me.Or I should have asked one of my acquaintance in the District Positive network[an NGO of Positive ppl] to go and find out where she lived and try to interact with the family.
I hid an important fact in my first posting about that girl.The fact was her father died few years ago due to HIV/AIDS and she might have been a victim of incestuous relationship[.Her mother was negative.]This was one of the most important factor that made her family want her to die.For them her death means an end to their humiliating secret.
She was severely ill,with her CD 4 count 20[indicating very advanced AIDS] at the time of diagnosis.Still with proper care there was a 40/60 or on the pessimistic side 20/80 chance that she will recover.
But they never wanted her to recover.Should I blame them? For them she was a dirty stain on the family,someone they wanted to forget fast.
May be I should have been able to ask some NGOs to take her under their wings.Take her out of the house where she is not wanted.If she was an orphan I might have done that before discharge from the hospital.But she was not an Orphan.She had a mother,sister and brother, and Uncles.
I wish she was an Orphan.Then she might have survived.